For example

 Babaji: what example ?

My example with Eben, if I have to handle all these porns, and have to watch Eben on the video more recent years, I will get burn. Like cannot do anything about it. But let’s say if its Kate, she would not let herself got burn “life cannot live, and death cannot seek” because if she watched porn or ‘prince William video, she got burn, she loses the game to Prince William. Like competition between we win or lose. To me, I don’t care I lose it to Eben, or be little lower than him. Would I have to secure my pride not to get burn by Eben if everyone hear me saying I don’t like that? I just have to get burn by Eben. There is nothing wrong to admit something went wrong on my side with Eben. Some just have a pride cannot lose herself in it. I don’t really know how to say that example right. It’s a winning losing mentality.